I am going to let you in on a little secret: if you are an Empath (a person who is naturally sensitive to emotions and energy), there is a HUGE chance you absorb other peoples’ energy daily without even realizing you do it! Imagine wearing someone else’s clothes: they are not comfortable and make you feel out of sorts. It took me years to figure it out. For a while, I though I had frequent mood swings and I was destined to deal with it. At times, my mood would change from high to low within seconds, just like that, without any particular reason. Sometimes, several times a day. Sometimes, I would wake up in the morning in the darkest mood, while I went to bed having a perfectly happy attitude. No reason, no explanation, just emotional unpredictability. Without being aware of reasons to this and not having any tools under my belt, it would take me days to get out of the “funk” and start seeing the light again.
If this sounds like you, do not despair! There is an easy fix, and it only took me thirty something years to figure out! And I thought I was a quick learner! After I accepted meditation into my regular spiritual practice, I learned what my normal energy felt like. It was not heavy, it was not sad, or depressed; it was light, bright, fluffy, and happy. This was my base-level: a state of energy that I normally have without being affected by external influences.
I am always amazed to see how children are not afraid to ask questions about things they do not understand. They are naturally open to learning. As a child, I was also extremely inquisitive and liked to come up with loaded questions that made my parents go “Um…” How would one answer a curious five year old who wanted to know why an oak was an oak and a cat was a cat. The answer that God made them was just not quite enough. I needed to know who God was and what he felt like. As I grew up, life got too busy for posing rhetorical questions. It was much easier to simply accept things the way they have always been. But even despite my attempted acceptance, I couldn’t help but recognize that when I needed help, a sincere prayer would always bring relief and solutions. I put a desire to know what was lying beyond common beliefs on a far shelf until the time and opportunity presented themselves.
While being spiritually open, my formal education and later career were very down-to-earth. I chose a safe path that I was able to see and touch; how much more grounded can the financial industry be? After years of working with people helping them solve financial dilemmas, I completed my Master’s degree in Business Management, and interestingly enough, although I loved what I did, I didn’t feel gravitated back to banking. My desire to look for deeper answers to life has spontaneously re-kindled, as if the clock has struck and the time has come.